New bLOggie!!

hehe im gonna start blogging here every day gua..
sob well i really miss my choon meng a lot.. honestly i do felt lonely , i know he`s busy and all .. well it`s college.. he do need his time to catch up with all his studies.. i miss him.. i really do..
sigh i m having exam .. stress up!!! argh! hate exams! i wonder y am i 17 this year.. just wish that i could be in the same age as my choon meng.. ya it is good werh..i mean like spm is over and u can start doing whatever u want to do..

i started to feel like i m getting further and further away from him.. I know he`s busy.. but i do feel afraid..ya it is like me and him are not closer as we are last time.. a lot arguements and misunderstands lately..wonder y.. i think is me who is the one thinking too much.. coz i really do miss him a lot..even we just met a few days ago..

Honestly, i m really sad about this and i really hope to make things better for our relationship.. i love him so so much.. Choon meng i`m sorry for being so emotional.. its just that sometimes i feel like u don`t like to talk to me and u `re trying to stay away from me that much and i feel lonely.. sorry but that`s how i felt..i know u`re busy.. so i`m trying to control myself nowadays.. im really afraid that u`ll leave me one day.. i do.. hope u`re ok with ur studies this days! don`t get so stress up ya..and im sorry bou today about the msn nick `lonely` is not i duwan to tell u.. i feel lonely.. and i dun dare to tell u becos i knw lately i been always like dat..wanting comfort and everything form u sorry.. thats y i didnt tell.. i really didnt mean to hurt u baby and im not trying to get attention from anyone..i stop that habit already really please do trust me..

ARGH exam!!! stress up!! One thing about exam i don`t like it when it comes to add maths exam! u know y??! im sitting in front and im the first person whose paper is gonna be collected..dun have time to check also! the teacher will be looking at me and say `chow ah?? u havent finish ar??` i also like paiseh and just pass her the paper..sigh sad sad.. kinda hard to
study actually cos something its bothering me.. i feel afraid... i afraid that i`ll be dumped cos im not that good and all...
WORRYING!!!! i can`t even control my emotions.. i cry out so easily nowadays... i feel like a spoiled brat who needs pampered and attention form parents.. but what i really one is to be with the one that i love happily.. that`s what i really want ..