I`m willing to wait

honestly..im very sad.. yes but abit better than be4..
i feel betray today..i hope u guys will appreciate your friends and don`t be selfish to get what you want..think of their situation and try to put yourself in there and you will know how they feel..
firstly i want thank vivian,kheng lam,felicia,caleb and suneel..
i been asking them for advices and help to get choon meng back..
even though i can`t get him back im grateful and i appreciate the help..
im sorry..i didnt meant to get your friends to be involved in this but..
sigh..i really want you..i cant let go.. i love you..
i got no one else to go to do you noe that?
i cant go to felicia or vivian or suneel anymore because i ask them 4 help alot times alredy and even though they talk to u ..u still won`t come back to me.. thats y.. i tot of caleb..
please don`t be angry..
please don`t hate me.. i really feel so hopeless and all i want is be back together with you..thats all so i look for help everywhere that i can..
please understand..

now im willing to let go i hope u will keep your promises to me..
i really hope... please..
i lose you nw.. all i just ask is a little small favour..
i know i cant be with u anymore..
Please..i really want you to do it for me..

i love him.. i still loves him. i even pray very hard since thursday morning till today that i hoping that lord jEsus will give me at least hope and miracle to get back be with him.. but it didnt happen..
maybe there is a reason for it..why it didnt happen..

all i can say is..even though i cant be his girlfriend..i cant hug and hold him..
i still want to care for him..i wan to see him to be successful too and happy..
i happy that he love me be4 and he nvr nvr cheat on me be4
but i do afraid that one day someone will take him aways from him..
because i love him..is like who will willing to lose someone that they love..
i wish i could be an angel..
invisible..follow him around everyday and looking after him and see what he goes true everyday and help him whenever i can..even though he cant see me or he knws i exists..as long as i can do dat..im happy..

if he loves you,he will come back to you one day even though you let him go..
i hope he will come back to me..
we`re friends now..
i hope we do maintain a good friend relationship and after everything is settle..
i hope he will come back to me..
i`ll be waiting for him..
i will..

i`ll wish him good luck for his studies..since this is what he wants..i hope it works for him..
really hope so..i hope he can manage everything and settle everything and balanced everything that time and i hope he `ll come back to me..i really hope he will come back to me..

i hope he will still loves me by that time..
i hope he will wait for me..
i got lots of hopes for him..

yes even though its hard to let go..it takes time.. it really takes time.. even though it does hurts ..u still have to let go becoz whatever u done and he don`t likes it ..you will make it even more worst..
he will hate you
i dont want that to happen..
but he really really force me.. i know he doing this is for our own good but im still sad about it that he force me to break up and leave him..
it hurts..
yes.. its really really tough believe me..
my mind was so blank that time.. and i almost turn insane ..i keep begging and asking him and saying no but seriously.. he say if i dun do tis he will hate me and dissappear from my life and wont talk to me anymore..
so this is what makes me accepted and hurts me so much..
because whats the use if u love him and he hates you..
at least being friends and u will still got hope and u can still chat with him..
the difference is we cant be that close to each other anymore even though i miss the feelings..
everything.. is all very precious to me..
yes is all very precious to me..

i will wait for him..
i will remember all the precious happy moments that we shared and had together..
i will how long no matter how long it takes..as long as i knw he will wait for me and still loves me.. i hope he will..
i really hope he will.
for me who still loves him..

sigh..! skipping exam tomolo..need to go clinic!!! gastric..arggh.. pain.. didnt eat for 4 days alredy..just drank water..
i have sleeping disorders too now! sigh!


hope things will get better soon..