My heart really shattered into pieces but i still loves him..

No matter how hard i try.. i beg or ask.. it still be the same.. its being decided d..
it hurts.. it really hurts.. i being crying for past three days ...its driving me crazy.. i cant eat.. i cant sleep i cant even study..it really hurts alot...
seeing the person that u love leaving right in front of u.. love u no more... u cant hold him or embrace him anymore it really hurts... i love him very much..and the relationship for 3years just ended up like dat.. he want to concentrate on his studies
thats what he said..
he can`t concentrate when he`s with me.. he is doing this for his future..for his own good.. i don`t want to see him fail too..i respect his decision then..i already try my best to ask him back and all but no use.. he don`t want to..he said the problem is not with me.. its him.. then i said y not u change for me...he said he can`t..he really can`t.. then i said i will change ..but still he say no..he told me that the problem is nt with me.. then i said y nt give me a chance..he say if i stay with him longer..i will give him trouble..why?
its sad..its really really sad..it just ended up all like that just because he wants to concentrate more on his studies..
it hurts..
it hurts..
letting him go its the hardest thing that i ever done in my life..
but tell me what can i do? he no longer want me anymore.. but why cant he tell me face to face..
why can`t he tell me face to face.. why on the phone.. which i have to beg my fren and him for so long just ask him to call to explain why.. is it there is something that is bothering that makes him don`t want me anymore..
i know im not that good and all but still i did really try my best to change myself to be a better girlfriend to you so that u will love me and there wouldn`t be any problems.. why does this has to happen? can u tell me..what`s wrong with me?
its really difficult for me to accept this.. i love him..
i still love him..
i willing to wait..
but will he wait for me..
will he keep his promise..
after 3 years..
will he still wants me?
all this things..keeps bothering me at night and i cant even sleep at all.. it hurts so much.. tears even roll down from my eyes when i see couples walking around..we were so happy together last time.. yes we do argue and ur feelings are getting lesser and lesser for me each time we argue..but still if u still loves me u should give me a chance..i told u before that i needed time.. i really take my word for it to change.. but it just that u didnt even give me the time.. its nt even a week.. and u said u want to leave me again.. but y.. be4 that we went out together..we were ok ,happy and you did promise me.. you did promise me choon meng that u wont ever leave me again and try to concentrate on your studies and again you broke your promise..
thats what i m afraid of now..
u said you really will keep the promise that i made with u..
so i really hope you will do now..
even though we`re friends now i still hope i get to go out with u whenever u`re free since u promise..
please do msg me whenever u`re bored or u have any problems,please do share with me..
please do come back to me if this doesn`t works..
please keep all the promises that u make..
please do settle your studies as soon as possible because i`ll be waiting for you and i m serious..

it hurts.. losing someone who you really love so so much hurts you alot..
i wonder for how long will i be like this..
i really wish that i could turn back in time..
since you been gone..i cannot breathe for the first time..it hurts so much..
i hope you will change your mind about leaving me..
there is so many other ways..
i can tolerate with it..
i told u..
love hurts..

i really put too much hope in this relationship and didnt know it will ended up like this..
i still loves him... thank you for everything..
i hope u wont get frustrated with me anymore..
since im your friend now..
you can share your problems with me now since last time u said u dun wan to hurt me thats y u`re not telling me..
i really wish that u could have told me face to face about this..
even though i cant accept at first but still the problem is between both of us..
think about it..
85% of all the couples would do dat..

i still miss u..cos i still loves u even though u`ve hurt me..
i really hope u will come back to me as soon as possible..
i know im stupid and i feel desperate to say this but.. i truly love him.. i love him..
thats all i want for now..
i dont want anything else now..