It hurts me..it really does..i cant live without him

it really hurts me alot..i even have tears rolling down my eyes writing this.. i still love him thats y.. i love him i really do..i love him alot and all sudden he said he wants to leave me it is so hurtful.. i feel like killing myself honestly.. choon meng why? please bare with me please.. it really hurts me alot.. please don`t leave me i beg u.. i cant even concentrate on my studies.. i don`t have the mood to study anymore... even exam today... i can hardly even write.. its almost blank ...im sorry cos i really need u.. i do.. choon meng please....
i know no matter how much i beg u u won`t want me anymore..but the only one that i love and i want is you if not i wouldn`t be doing this..i care about u and i need u..
choon meng please...
we are really happy being together when we met ..yes sometimes we argue i know is me but please understand..im really worried thats why i feel afraid..u see even now u want to leave me.. please i beg u.. it`s hard and it`s torturing... please give me a chance..u did promise to not to let me go.. im willing to change but i want u to give me time too.. choon meng please.. its really hard choon meng please.. it hurts.. it really does.. i even pray very hard to make our relationship better please... choon meng..i beg u.. it hurts .. it really does.. u don`t want to answer my call or msg me or meet me to talk about this.. choon meng please... i know u still love me but u`re don`t admit.. i do believe that u still love me.. please.. u promise me..
i can`t even sleep nor eat or even study without u.. choon meng please.. give me time please..
i really mean it.. choon meng.. i feel so weak now.. please..